So? what's now?

Well, here i am again... i will not write in spanish, because i don't want that everyone understand what i'm tryin' to say.. U never know who might be reading on the other side of the screen.
The thing is i'm feeling sad, and not because i have no reasons, 'cause actually i got many reason to be a little sad, but the truth is that there are so many people in my country and in the world that have so much pain and so many reasons to suffer, that me compared with them... well i think there's no comparison... my life is easy, my world should be happy... However why it doesn't feel so happy?? why i'm not feeling so good??
easy.. because i lost a part of me, a piece of my heart was taken and then, the person who stole it, lost it ... so now that part is missing and theres a hole in my heart i feel kind of empty.
But I learned, that that person who take that piece of me, it doesn't deserve anything of me now. Not a tear, because in the past i spend so many tears in him, not a bad look, not a bad word, i mean, he doesn't deserved anything, nothing, NO THING..
But Why I'm still crying? Not that much, not like yesterday, but why i still remember that times we lived together... I used to think that he wanted me, he loved me, Now I know that was just an ilussion, a big fat lie that not even someone told me, but a lie who my heart and my feelings created to make sure that i was feeling secure and comfortably beeing the other one, the lover, and not the loved one.
So, what's next? How many times I've been through the same damn thing over and over again before? I think i've lose the count. But what i do know, it's that if i don't begin to love myself and respecet my self, for sure no one ever will..
So now it comes a new kind of homework, a new objective of my life, learnd and start to falling in love with myself..maybe then, i finally would find a partner to be with, someone who really love me for what i am, just the way i am.

Bye.